So..I’ve been training. So VERY VERY hard. So hard in fact that I had to stop lifting so that my right forearm could heal, but that was only a couple of days of no upper body training.
I have much too much to gain..achieve between now and the next 25 weeks and size..is one of those things. So after tons of glutamine and excess rest I’m finally going to train chest tomorrow.
I am the type of person who goes to the gym to train for pleasure. I do it because I love it. I’ve never been able to put my emotions into my lifting, it’s just not who I am. I have a great deal stress I need to work off..so I guess tomorrow will be the day I learn to put my anger in my lifting. Only those close to me (myself) understands what damage my anger can cause. I’m the type who holds things in..but I must learn to release. My only hope is that I wont cause any more damage to my body and further set myself back.
Tomorrow I will lift safe..I will take my time and I will do it right, but most of all I will lift heavy. Heavier by myself than I have ever lifted. Why? Because I need this.