Most female competitors fear the complete opposite of what I fear, but in some ways..it’s exactly the same. Most fear being TOO big…TOO muscular. Most dont ever wish to be as big as I want to be. I’m rare…I know that.
My biggest fear….is that I’ll never be satisfied with my body…no matter what I do. Only difference from those other women…is that the reason I will never be satisfied is because I fear I’ll never be big ENOUGH. No..I dont wish to be a barbaric masculine woman who has lost almost all her femininty. What I desire to be is exactly what I was made for. To show others how being a very muscular woman can be sexy…attractive…feminine…NORMAL.
It’s possible…I know it. I just hope along the way to my bigness I am able to come to terms with myself and feel satisfied at my size and muscularity. As of right now..I’m not sure there is an end in sight….