..what i’m attempting to do is NOT expected to be conquered by MOST!!
It really isn’t!! At times i wonder how it is i’m doing it.
Contest prep is at 8.5 weeks till show time, and my body is giving in. Of course i know i’ve heard how this process is very grueling on the mind and the body, but it never occured to me exactly HOW this happens. I’ll tell you..from what i can tell your body takes the beating day in and day out..because the mind is determined to do what it needs to do to succeed. But oh no..the body being beat up is NOTHING..it’s what happens to your mind once you’ve beaten your body up enough to the point where your mind can no longer control what your body is doing.
Now it’s time to call on a will power you never knew existed and never imagined you’d have the power to summon.
Just had the worst training session EVER in my 5 years of lifting weight consecutively. It was hammie day today..and WOW..the receptors that control the body were NOT active today. I’d like to think i’m relatively strong for a woman (well DAMN i better be strong with all this muscle looking this big..lol), but today while doing Stiff Leg Deads i found my mind wanting to do one thing and my body not be able to do HALF that. I’ve always been able to go heavier on SDLs than RDLs (Romanian Deadlift) NOT TODAY!! Nope..today..my body said..”HA..Val want to try again?”..and that was when i thought i was lifting a light weight (165lbs)..not even..my body wasn’t having it. I went all the way down to 135lbs and even then my body was pissed. I didnt care though..this was below the belt for me and I was NOT going to let her win DAMNIT!!
It’s almost like my body doesn’t want to understand that i’m trying to win here..lmao. Of course i know that i’ve been taxing my body..and i know it needs rest and lost more food, but now is not the time for her to complain..she HAS to do this. i was MADE for this!!!
It almost feels like i’m fighting with myself. I’m sure that if i didn’t have music i would be done for. The distraction helps me not think..and at times i need to NOT think. Hopefully i will have this moment of SURGE where my brain sends this amazing strength of power over my body and starts moving it like a puppet. Something you would see in some Superhero movie.
I have a superpower..and it’s called BEAST!! It happens when conquer whatever i put your mind to..and i’m going to harness her 🙂 WHY?
BECAUSE I WAS MADE FOR THIS!!